...however when i mention this to others who dont have E. they think im crazy.
Psychosocial effects of epilepsy cause feelings of anger. Am I hitting the nail on the head? Did you face alot of social issues regarding epilepsy?
The Epilepsy Resource Center thanks everyone for sharing their stories with the community and we look forward to hearing from you again.
Mary Ann Thornton
The Epilepsy Foundation
The Epilepsy Resource Center
I'm on 3000mg. Keppra daily and 400mg. Lamictal daily. Growing up the way I did with parents that split when I was 2. I had a lot of time to teach myself to control my emotions (my wife hated that part of me). I was diagnosed with E about 4 years ago now and went in for surgery about 2.5 years ago. Still on meds. Now my wife was the firs to notice that I was having these bad mood swings and was quick to the draw when it came to irritability. Once she was able to confront me with it, I was able to take a step back if I felt myself getting angry. Now I've always been proud of my emotional control and had a problem with not being able to fully control it. Like I said, now I can take a step back and re-access my feelings and deal with it. Like Bethany said, solitude is a great help for me also. Having the quiet and relaxation makes me feel so much better. Sometimes I even turn off the lights if possible. I can drive again since June '09 and love the quiet drive to and from work. Sometimes the kids drive me nuts on the way to taking them to work and I find myself saying "Just be calm, don't get mad because they are fighting and crying and all". Afterwards, I think it is really quite funny. I think of all those comercials and television shows with thes moms all frazzled from the kids and the crazyness. Definitely try removing yourself from the place of anger, walk away from people and go to a quiet place with nobody around you. Having that control really helps. I think it will help out with your feelings. Hope our ideas help out.
I'm Frontal and Right temporal lobe/ Partial complex. 4000 mgs Keppra and 1200 mgs Trileptal. I don't know where my anger issues arise from but I think the psychological damage done by having seizures 55 years is part of it. I was told that I need a Therapist even more than a Neurologist, because Seizures are half the problem and mood swings, depression and other psychological issues. Boredom, Lonliness, Depression, all jump on me at once as if they work together. I've lived so long with them and I've sort of just adjusted and accepted that my life cannot and will not be like my 5 brothers and sisters who can do anything they want. So I seemed to have formed a life of my own based upon all the limitations given so I've been like a hermit, isolated, reclusive for most of my life. I want to be more social and thats something I have to face in the years to come, I'm just not used to it or good at it other than online.
The Frontal lobe has a lot to do with emotions and that might be one of my issues. Laughing and Crying are two things my body doesn't do. My emotions seem to be burried so deep that only writing about them brings them out. People in the family used to say that I was Emotionless. Thats something that gets in the way of my relating to women. They seem to want me to be able to laugh,cry and be as emotional as they are. I just can't do it. Being Cool,Calm, Collected, on Antiseizure meds, Antidepressants, high blood pressure meds, cholesterol meds, thyroid meds, Heart meds, all seem to keep my libido at the point of Zero, and most women I meet do not accept that.
As this year arrived I just have to continue to live like that.